I don't want to be a walking-around copy of my or anybody's "bible." I don't want to live with all the commas in the right place, all the paragraphs lined up rigid, righteous and right. I want to live this life...mistakes and all. Especially the mistakes...as Fr Richard has written, "I don’t think getting it right teaches us vulnerability. It’s when we’re wrong that we are taught to be vulnerable."
Life's hard lesson: We want to live this life, we want to be vulnerable...until we live this life and get caught by one who "sees" us before we do. That's when vulnerable does not feel like a warm blanket...it feels like another horse, another color.
Blinding flash of the obvious: Vulnerability is ego's hemlock.
It is our deepening sense of the spiritual nature of life itself that reveals God in vulnerability.
I read recently that it is vulnerability that gifts us with true emotional freedom...that means no longer needing confirmation, agreement, or validation from another to know our basic goodness (from therapists Jett Psaris and Marlena Lyons). And isn't that beautiful?
It is God in all his glory, all of our spiritual growth, and leaning hard into future spiritual growth that dusts ego off and out. Once ego has had its say, we realize that getting caught by one who sees before we see is the essence of vulnerability...how else are we vulnerable but by unplanned bare-butt exposure to another's eyes?
Resist not evil is clear...thank you is sufficient for all our needs...love and laugh is the open door to acceptance...acceptance is God's ever answer.
All our thinking has been done for us, now we live it...en garde no more.
Thank you.
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