God's will...knowing it and doing it. Sometimes trying to do God's will feels like a crapshoot.
Though my deepest desire be for God's will to be done in my life, it cannot be done by my will...it comes from God whose way is wholly unknowable beforehand. We know it as we do it.
Occasionally we are right when we follow our reasoning mind, thinking we know God's will. Other times, though we ponder, analyze, debate, get others agreement, we wind up with another regret to make amends for.
Back to our crapshoot...I suspect our dilemma is found in our want not in our need. We want to be right...right in our mind and right in the eyes of our peers. Uh-oh. Our idea of being right has no leeway for not being right for the benefit of another.
Just because our conclusion is just, right and good does not make it God's will for us at this particular time for this particular need.
I'm good with the idea that there are no mistakes. Everything happens for our good if only for the benefit of another...as in, deeper/higher, for our spiritual good.
We may not see our spiritual good in another benefitting from our screwup, but we trust...and there's our God-hug. Which opens us to the realization that though I cannot actually see the love in my heart, the fear in my belly, the pain I am in, the joy I experience, I know they live in me because I feel them.
Though I cannot see God, I can feel my need for God...my yearning to feel God. Thus, I trust.
Thank you.
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