It seems we all have a niggling desire to be the me we are, to be accepted as acceptable...warts and all.
It is a "wow!" and a "whoa!" when we accept that it is not our love of gossip or our making mock at others' expense that are our unacceptables (and we've been praying be lifted when we know very well are covered by common courtesy so we'd best use it)...no, it is our inner conflicted self that we must needs overcome to get that acceptance.
That realization allows us to believe that the reasoning mind is as useless as teats on a bull in overcoming our own self. Oh, well rats...and thank you!...for we come way too slowly to see that our reasoning mind is the essential tram carrying us forward.
I doubt not, if I read these posts of mine back over the years, that I'd find conflicting assurances of certainties throughout. I hope I would anyway...that's what keeps us digging deeper to move ever higher. It is when we get set in the safety of our own conclusions, and name those "God's will," that our little tram jumps the tracks.
Those assurances, many of which were based on my blinding flashes of the obvious, were Truth to me as it existed in that moment...but God is not stationary. Blinding flash...hence our understanding of God cannot be stationary.
There is a truth, unbending and forever, which is the foundation of all spiritual growth, and that is God is Love.
It matters not when we decide to seek God, or how we come to that decision, we discover that there is a requisite stemming from that decision, and that is the need to get over our own self. Plain and simple. For it is self alone that stands in the door, blocking our entry in to God, who stands at the door and knocks to be let out, to meet us, to welcome us in.
There. This the forever lesson aborning: Our thoughts determine our still more spiritual growth. We find that we had best make a conscious decision to let God do our thinking, thus our talking, for us...which takes a lifetime of discipline to learn not only to keep our mouth shut, we can tape our lips together for that, but to keep our mind stilled.
To say simply "Yes" or "No" is very possible to the reasoning mind; it is what we are led by our thoughts to say and do after...the judgments we pass, the havoc we wreck within, spoken or unspoken, which may not show forth to others but invariably circles back on us.
Our prayer becomes not for me or for you or for the state of mankind even, but that our thoughts be stayed on God, on Love...and Laughter.
Thank you.
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