In my study of the Sermon, I am this morning at Matthew 6:25-33 "Therefore I tell you, do not be anxious about your life [then He names eat, drink, wear and compares to how God feeds, waters, clothes the birds, beasts and nature] ...your heavenly Father knows that you need them all. But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things shall be yours as well."
I'm thinking of this ending with do not be anxious Period, end of sentence. Which then opens me to the Just Do It part, i.e., Trust, Forgive, Resist Not.
My God-aim is to seek first his kingdom...to trust God, forgive you and me, and resist not/resist naught.
[Note: I do not mention here and his righteousness. That is the juggernaut. I say often I wish he'd left it at "seek first his kingdom" which, comparatively, is easy-peasy, but his righteousness??? Mercy. That's a hard one for me to want without egoic reservations...even eyebrows up takes some serious work.]
At any rate, thus begins my Get Over Yourself work...my acceptance of anxiety at a deeper level higher since, to date, anxiety has been my sliver of gold linking me to God. It was anxiety that told me nothing turns me to God faster than fear; ergo, love, laugh, fear and get on with it.
So far in my life, spiritual freedom has come by doing that which I believed to be right, and, when (not if) wrong, admitting it and making my U-bie. The time it takes each time is the time it takes each time.
This is my trust by doing, forgive by my U-bie, resist not by admitting and moving on.
Obviously, this is a plain and simple roadmap to free-from-me. I long ago realized I would need to strive to be a Grandma Moses wannabe in doing spiritual since I have a hard enough time staying between the lines of my own understanding.
I'm guessing that is why the last three stanzas of the St Francis prayer lighten my heart: For it is in self forgetting that we find; it is in forgiving that we are forgiven; it is in dying to self that we are reborn into everlasting life.
Thank you.
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