It is not our deepest want, held in secret but oh-so-dear, that if received will bring us the joy we imagine...hope for.
It is our deepest fear, held in secret so no one can know, that if realized will grace us, bring us Home.
The hook is that to know this from our eyebrows up alone becomes useless information. It's a necessary first step toward realized grace, but our rational mind will stop with the first knowing. That's when it transitions into useless. We must continue on the path of welcoming...also known as "hold your nose and take a leap of faith." Our resistance is in our very trying to make sense of it. Face it, who without scrutiny sets out to and then continues to welcome their nemesis?
Ah, but how else do we diminish our nemesis? If we could destroy it by "knowing better," we'd be home free already.
We come again to the realization that fear is God's camouflage...nothing invites God out of his hidey-hole into our consciousness like fear. We welcome fear with a scared heart, trembling lips and our thoughts on hold...anything other is our ego putting on airs.
There is no guarantee when we will realize that God has done the dirty for us...we may know in an instant, it may take longer...way longer. I have never known in the instant, but on looking back years later, I can see that is how it happened...I just c/would not realize it then. Which has been the gift of grace for me since many of my ego-errors (a.k.a., angels unaware) have come in that period of unknowing.
All of which says to me that Meister Eckhart knew what he was talking about when he said, If the only prayer you say in your life is thank you, that would suffice.
Thank you.
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