I did not awaken until almost 7:00 this morning...I did not arise until 7:30. I did not begin my sitting in the silence until after 9:00. Usually, I am up and about before 5:00 A.M., and I go almost immediately into my silent time...so I pondered this. I felt no fear, but I'm glad I have learned to question myself when, for no clearly discernible reason, my patterns take a turn on me.
My life has had deep changes in the past couple years...with many friends and my beloved Ruckus moving on. My boy going back to Heaven being the major, but having a dozen friends move out and on, all across the country, all within a few years. is food for contemplation...to me at any rate. Wonderfully, I heard from three of my beloveds yesterday alone. There...Christmas in my heart. And, who's kidding whom, I still talk to Ruckus daily.
Then I read my "God Calling," and today, December 16, has one of my favorite entries: Joy is the reward of patiently seeing Me in the dull dark days, of trusting when you cannot see....Joy is as it were your heart's response to My smile of recognition of your faithfulness....Stop thinking your lives are all wrong if you do not feel it. (Over the years, I have underlined and highlighted that last sentence to the point of nearly unreadable. Slow learner...and God loves that.)
Don't tell me God doesn't know...and answer...my every need. Yours, too!
Thank you.
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