In a recent conversation with a friend concerning a friend's passing, we were regretting that our friend was so resistant at the end. We were a tish critical of him and were consciously seeking to understand rather than judge.
We were blessed with the realization that none of us get to choose exactly how we go out...even a suicide cannot foretell the last thought s/he may experience. The karmic possibility is their last mental flash may be the perfect solution to the perceived problem that led them to opt for suicide.
We may seriously and sincerely believe that, our goal having long been for still more spiritual growth, we are immune from dying angry. Then at the moment of death, we flash on the old, we thought forgiven, unfair punishment we got when we were ten and there it is: We mentally go out kicking, carping and crying.
We do know that obsessively trying to guard against (or pull for) anything opposes the will of God. The singular desire to ensure that we won't die angry may well be in opposition to a known-only-to-God beneficial reason that we need to die less than happy. It is, after all, just our own idea of happy that we're holding to.
We oppose the will of God at our own peril, and not from God's punishment but from our own ego's vengeance. The answer still, yet, again: Love and laugh. Which is the only possible way around, i.e., through, our woes.
Since this will take a lot of time and concentrated effort, best start packing now. In honor of Veteran's Day, pack up your troubles in your old kit bag and smile, smile, smile.
God loves us sooo much.
Thank you.
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