The notes I've made in my "God Calling" tell my story...keep me honest with myself, actually.
This morning I see my today, November 26, page filled by year with one less-than-wonderful after another. In 1980 it was an apparently disastrous wreck movers made of my apartment that I would need to pay for; in 1985 it was job, car, friends; my first beloved pet Ari and my wonderful boss both went back to Heaven on the same day in 1989; 1990 brought the threat by the IRS of default.
The good news is that in 1992, I could look back and write: God was in each of those...all those outers were wiped clean.
Hoo boy, do I need that reminder right now! I'm dealing with a serious ear infection today (with the real possibility of lancing) and the completion of my implant surgery next week...after four months of healing.
By all that's reasonable, wouldn't one think if an ear infection was needed, it would have come two months ago? Or two months from now? Because, who's kidding whom, no one is going to slice and dice in my mouth with an ear infection rampaging in my head. And I've waited FOUR months, Lord, not to get pushy about it.
Slow down, bring it around. The most spiritual thing you're ever going to do is slow down. That truth just traveled back to me from some 45 or 46 years ago. Just as I needed it then.
A gift of spiritual growth is learning to look through God's eyes. We know beforehand that good will come from this...good for our own self personally. Ear infections and implants and hangnails and cancer...they are all outers, each with the possibility of death or dingus. Our certainty is in the fact that each can and will be wiped clean...by no way possible to just thinking about it.
I do believe, Lord, help me my unbelief.
Thank you.
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