But thou, when thou prayest, enter into thy closet, and when thou hast shut thy door, pray to thy Father which is in secret; and thy Father which seeth in secret shall reward thee openly. —Matthew 6:6
I have in my time actually gone into my closet and knelt on the floor, along with the clothes, shoes, and laundry basket, and prayed. And prayed for whatever it was I was obsessed with either getting or getting rid of at the moment.
It was (and continues to be) a mentally great gettin' up morning when I realize that I am rewarded, and my always reward is God consciousness deeper at a higher level or higher at a deeper level. In fact, sometimes I am rewarded in the instant with a blinding flash of the obvious, but sometimes...ah, sometimes weeks/months go by before realization surprises me, and I feel graced.
Interesting to me, whenever I read Matthew 6:6, my natural mind's immediate thought is that the reward God will bestow is something of egoic value, as in money or glory or a special relationship. Interesting because I do not have a conscious need for more money or glory or a special relationship...but to my ego and apparently BFF Lucy, there is no enough. Of anything.
Which explains why my long-ago decision to seek still more spiritual growth is still my from-my-toenails-up goal.
Thank you.
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