According to me, the hardest thing we will ever do in life is simply change our mind. The veriest hint that we may need to change our mind is a challenge to our ego, and ego victory is what we step to.
Until a profound change comes to us, usually brought through sickness, the possible death of a beloved, some oncoming disaster...in short, whatever brings unrelieved suffering...we will cling like ivy to our own self-determined good.
It is that very suffering that breaks us. It is the cause of that suffering that we so desperately hold to, to never change our mind about, that we must rethink. For the only change that is asked of us is to welcome that cause...to open our mind to another way of experiencing it.
Yet what rational person would welcome an incurable illness, or the death of a child, or a life-altering disaster? Here's where the break comes...God is not in the rational. It is impossible to reason out what God's plan is before we will accept it, i.e., change our mind. No. We must "crash and burn," which is the very thing we're desperate to avoid, in order to get shut of our ego's reasoning whose only purpose is to protect our own self as we think we need be protected.
The mystery of crash and burn is that we arise from the ashes of our self-determined mindset into the fourth dimension...into the grace of not knowing. Where we once knew, and we knew we knew, now we no longer have a clue, and we somehow intuit that is the good news.
Intuition lives in a higher consciousness that is present within us, without us, always available to all of us, the good, the bad, the boring. And in that moment of realization we begin to live a turned-over life no longer dependent on our reasoning mind but on the grace of God.
Finally, and happily, we begin to live free of the fear of doing the wrong thing. Since our ego-victory mind is no longer our life's guide, we can (and do) make mistakes, none of which are unfixable when we learn to own them. We own them by getting over our self.
We let go. We let God. We love. We laugh. We are free of ego-me.
Thank you.
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