We can know that we have all the love, patience, kindness...good in a word...there is to have within us right this minute, but until we realize it, it's just head knowledge.
Head knowledge is all well and good...and necessary, in fact, for we must start somewhere. Too often, though, we sit with our first understanding believing we have the big "It." We don't...we have it from our eyebrows up and that is all.
That is why seeking still more spiritual growth is a daily practice...of making our self available each and every day, the earlier in the day the better before the outside world awakens and intrudes into our consciousness, according to my first spiritual adviser. I have found that to be true.
It is when we start actually using that indwelling patience by being patient in a trying situation, by showing love to an unlovable, by doing good for a creep...by not judging others as creeps for that matter...that we realize the Father within.
My ego Lucy will always speak louder to me than God does, make more sense to my reasoning mind, be more clearly on my side. That's why we need a mentor, why we have friends...for us to turn to so they can speak truth to the towering power of our ego. If talking to our self worked, we'd never need a friend...why parade our ignorance, Lucy would ask.
All of this is hard, requires leaning into God a lot, and never giving up. It is only by committing to the daily discipline for our spiritual growth that it turns from hard to natural...kinda like breathing.
Whether we do it or not, God loves us...we just can't realize it when we're listening only to our own nattering.
Thank you.
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