We learn fairly early on that we must needs walk toward our fears.
It takes some time before we can begin to realize the why of that...to walk away is resistance. Resistance attaches to our fear and nurtures it, going ever deeper. To walk toward our fear is trust in the Father within us, is love. Love, like angel wings, sweeps us forward as we pass through.
The mistake we make is believing that we must make this happen...we will even set up anxiety-producing situations to prove we trust God. Then we are devastated when we have an anxiety attack because God didn't do his part...i.e., keep the anxiety away. No. God will not be tested...that's just old Lucy trying to use God for her benefit.
I'm guessing every old adage has its roots in truth. Time takes time is heard often and ignored mostly...because we return yet again to our ego-based reasoning mind to find a new p.d.q. solution.
I'm reminded of this from a note I wrote in my "God Calling" on this day in 1984: There is a perfect outcome for me in this mess. I then thought of a perfect solution, tried it, and very shortly thereafter I was "gifted" with the IRS. Which surely sounds just like what it was...bad news.
The good news is, when my perfect solution arrived some years later, I had awakened to this "mess" as the foundation for my spiritual journey which is woven throughout with the IRS experience.
Today, whatever comes to me, I remember that the IRS, on arrival, looked like spinach, but it became my pearl beyond price and remains that to this very day.
The bottom line of my spiritual awakening is the realization that the IRS experience happened exactly as it needed to happen for my spiritual growth. Our seeming mistakes are our tangled skein. Hold them close and reap rues, regrets and remorses. Give them to God to make right and he does.
Thank you.
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