THE BATTLE IS NOT OURS

But if you do choose to walk through the depths--even the depths of  your own sin and mistakes--you will come out the other side, knowing you've been taken there by a Source larger than yourself.  [I read that awhile back in a Richard Rohr "Daily Meditation" just after my deep quiet time on my rues, regrets and remorses being my gold.]

Knowing, believing and living that knowledge and belief is the essence of a spiritually based being. It is way too difficult to believe (not to know but to believe) even when in the depths of our own sin and mistakes, that God is there. Our Source, our Force of Being, our very own Beloved, is with us, within us, without us ever and always.

I suspect the reason it is so difficult is because that belief, not the knowledge but the belief, totally eviscerates the ego. My ego Lucy doubles, triples, down with the very idea. We want ego deflation in depth and make the mistake of thinking to do it our self. We know what to do, we do for others all on our own...easy peasy.  Lucy exults with the very idea.

To engage in a battle of will or wits with Lucy is to play with Lucy's deck...stacked and marked against me before birth. So imagine trying to deflate her entirely...she's already won the battle the minute I engage in it.

Remember that great civil rights battle cry, "Keep your eyes on the prize!" There it is. We don't ponder our ego and all its shifty, sneaky, low-life ways and how we're going to whip it...mainly because we're getting set to use every one of those ways in order to win. No. That's just another ego trip.

So, what to do? We go to God. Not for the purpose of defeating Lucy...that's staying in the ego-battle. We keep our focus on God, the things of the spirit, love, peace, joy. In effect, we let God hug Lucy, and in his warm embrace Lucy is powerless.

The battle is not ours...it is God's.

Thank you.