ALWAYS GOD LOVES AND LAUGHS

...in the depths of their hearts where neither sin nor desire nor self-knowledge can reach, the core of their reality, the person that each one is in God’s eyes. --  from a writing of Thomas Merton's

In that half sentence, one phrase in particular spoke out loud to me. I heard, "...in the depths of my heart where self-knowledge cannot reach is who I am in God's eyes."

It occurred to me that it is our constantly seeking still more self-knowledge that is the detour that defines us. We need self-knowledge primarily in order to turn it over to the care of God.

Making peace...actually making friends...with our reasoning mind is the goal according to me. We don't want to, and can't, just turn off our reasoning mind for it plays a vital role in our life...in picking and choosing and deciding and selecting, all functions of our reasoning mind. It is after we've picked, chosen, decided and selected that we must needs turn from our reasoning mind and let God finish off the project.

God has already perfected that which is given us to do...it is our reasoning mind's choice that he gets to work with in bringing it out into the open. And there's the sink hole. His perfect will is our gold, and we're wanting nickels and dimes.

Thus begins our rocky road to still more spiritual growth. Learning to detach from our wants in order to realize God's perfect, and unknown, will becomes our one heart's desire. We sit in the silence and wait on the Lord. As Fr Richard Rohr says, "We shed our thoughts about ourselves."

My ego Lucy cries, "Boring!"  And my reasoning mind sometimes agrees and goes haring off on its own. Sometimes I stay put and thank God for my everything just as it is right that very minute.

Always God loves and laughs.

Thank you.