I don’t recall ever truly letting go of any resentment I’ve held of another by praying for them. The very prayer keeps me focused on the wrong as a fact.
I pray for my thoughts about that person…for my heart to be changed, upgraded, toward that person. And in that prayer, I accept the responsibility for letting go of the resentment…that’s when I’m working toward aligning my will with God’s will. Just that slight change of focus, from looking through my eyes at how I’ve been wronged to looking through God’s eyes to peace, takes my thoughts off the resentment, my real problem.
In my idea of a perfect world, I’d only have to do that once, and voila! I’m resentment free. Unfortunately, my resentments are always justified, I am right, and you are wrong. To get free of me takes persistence, sharing my petty problem with another (risking their agreement that this is really petty), and plain old willingness to simply change my mind (an extremely difficult act for me).
But the incredible freedom, the wrap-my-heart-around-it joy, that comes from going beyond reason to love…an impossible get when one is into winning through another’s losing, no matter what the cause.
Thank you.
No comments:
Post a Comment