That. Is. It.
That is the key to my gratitude for the bad side effects of meds. I am apparently one of the "two percent of the population" who will experience everything from halitosis to lockjaw if I take any of the new "miracle" drugs. This is my experience, not my "with my luck, I'll bet that's true." I have undergone two major surgeries due entirely to the side effects of prescribed meds. I still get nose ulcers every winter from a nose spray I was prescribed ten years ago and used for less than a week. There's more, but if I get too enchanted with my uniqueness, I'll miss my point.
My point being...if not for my bad side effects, I would have turned to any number of the new meds any number of times. Over the years, I have felt anxiety beyond imagining. I got to sit and wait on the Lord...who came in his own perfect time. I don't fear anxiety any more. I still get visited by anxiety on occasion, but only rarely and each time is less scarifying. I do not love it, I just do not fight it. I've learned to rely on my "Thank You" prayer, and I feel One'd.
I've been depressed...I've felt unwanted, unneeded, unloved and unappreciated with my own set of facts backing my feelings up! I got to sit and wait on the Lord...who came in his own perfect time. I don't fear depression any more. I still get depressed on occasion, but only rarely and each time is less scarifying. I do not love it, I just do not fight it. I've learned to rely on my "Thank You" prayer, and I feel One'd.
That is what is known as a transformation of consciousness through numinous. And numinous is the real therapy, and inasmuch as you attain to numinous experience, you are released from the curse of pathology. Even the very disease takes on a numinous character!
Let me admit here and now, never before in my lifetime have I heard of numinous, but when you hear Truth, you know it. God loves us sooo much.
Thank you.
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