I considered this morning the difference between expectation and anticipation. For whatever reason, to my ear, expectation has a negative connotation…but anticipation just sounds happy.
I checked my Webster's (I may be the last person standing who still uses a cloth-and-paper dictionary) just to see the exact meaning of each word.
Expectation: to look forward to (as a foregone conclusion)…which to me translates as “to look forward to with dread.”
Anticipation: to foresee and provide for beforehand…which to me is a hoped-for thing.
In anticipating a complete awakening in God consciousness, I can know it is taking place within me now. I have no idea how. It will display Itself through me. It already has and is.
In expecting an unfolded consciousness, I have my own idea what that means…enlightened, feeling at peace, knowing sunshine and rainbows. In other words: getting a whole new me. And right there…that is what keeps me stuck in my material state of mind. Even in thinking I’ll be getting peace of mind, loving kindness…all the pretties…I am still in it for the getting. Not getting these self-determined objectives leaves a vague feeling of “loser”…sunk by my own expectations.
Be still and know that I am God…I already am.
Thank you.
I checked my Webster's (I may be the last person standing who still uses a cloth-and-paper dictionary) just to see the exact meaning of each word.
Expectation: to look forward to (as a foregone conclusion)…which to me translates as “to look forward to with dread.”
Anticipation: to foresee and provide for beforehand…which to me is a hoped-for thing.
In anticipating a complete awakening in God consciousness, I can know it is taking place within me now. I have no idea how. It will display Itself through me. It already has and is.
In expecting an unfolded consciousness, I have my own idea what that means…enlightened, feeling at peace, knowing sunshine and rainbows. In other words: getting a whole new me. And right there…that is what keeps me stuck in my material state of mind. Even in thinking I’ll be getting peace of mind, loving kindness…all the pretties…I am still in it for the getting. Not getting these self-determined objectives leaves a vague feeling of “loser”…sunk by my own expectations.
Be still and know that I am God…I already am.
Thank you.
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