GOD IS THERE WITHIN...FOR US TO EXPERIENCE

God looks through my eyes, I don't look through his eyes.

As I reread that note that I had written in my "God Calling" so long ago, I remembered how often, before I got that blinding flash of the obvious, I used to shoot pleading prayers. I was forever begging God to let me see my current ugly through his eyes, to recognize it as the gold I had been assured it really was.

The morning when I flashed on that, I knew, and I knew I knew: God, the source, the force, the unseeable, unknowable, untouchable is within me/without me. Present always and all ways to all...me, you, they, them, us, friends, foes, animals...wild and tame, furry and feathered and scaled...flowers and trees, weeds and foods growing in the fields. There. God is there. Here. God is here.

To me, that is the blessing and the curse of the reasoning mind...that which sets humans apart from all other things and beings. The blessing is that it is our reasoning mind that guides us up to those blinding flashes of the obvious, then opens up, allowing us to believe what we are told, that God is revealed through great love and/or great suffering.

The curse is it is our own reasoning mind that tells us suffering is bad and should not...must not...be tolerated. It is that reasoning mind that cannot differentiate between the suffering of love and the suffering of the flu or the fear of fear. "I hurt therefore I'll tell God to fix me...then I'll find something to take for it."

It is we who refuse to accept for fact the miracle of God within us, without us. Not all, of course, but too many of us believe from our eyebrows up, but refuse to use the daily self-discipline required to seek, to seek, to seek deeper within for our healing. It's faster to look outward. Ever searching for the perfect "something" to upgrade our reality or improve our feelings...when all the while that "something" is there within...for us to experience.  

Thank you.