Here's my exercise for Valentine's Day: Choose one of the people currently in my "Bless him, change me" thoughts. Mentally bless her, bless me, bless my thoughts about him, bless the act of hers that I'm resisting. Mentally hug them, kiss them, and let them go...detach from my attachment. Repeat off and on as I remember...no doubt not often enough, but that's heading in the right direction.
Then my fun exercise begins. Find the key to my resistance...look deep within for the key is within, always within. Search and love the search...giggle a lot...sing "Marezedoats" or "Zip-a-dee-do-da." Under no circumstances sing "Nobody Knows the Troubles I Have Seen." Unless I can giggle as I sing it...and mean it.
Keep going back to the person I'm resisting...and why is it never a flower? a frog even? A frog I can just walk on by...but my self-described frog-person? That one'll make a home in my head every time.
Go back to my mental me, see me thinking less than wonderful, and say, out loud, "I forgive." Repeat, not incessantly, but often. See my chosen person, say, out loud, "I forgive," and repeat.
The promise is that God loves us simply for our trying...his love is not in our successfully trying (which I can't think he hates). The fact is, to try for better than I am right now, pleases me!
Why would I think that the only prize is in God's approval? God is not a good judge of character...he loves unconditionally...everything, everywhere, all ways and always...cats even.
Thank you.
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