Interestingly, I am watching the process play out for three friends each of whom took a teeny tiny itsy-bitsy step into a self-determined objective "because it's the best way to handle this." The most interesting part is the price for that teeny step has been coming due for one friend for weeks now, it is now coming due for another and has not yet begun for the third. But sure as God made you and me, the price will come due for him, too.
It is the ego to whom we defer in that wee step. And the ego's price, which is impossible for us to know before hand, is anything the ego wants it to be. We have just made a self-justified side trip from God, the recovery from which leaves us at the mercy of our ego until we crash and burn...yet again.
We begin our recovery when we decide to divorce ourselves from our own thinking and not go with another self-determined objective (as in, to never ever go there again which is demonstrably impossible for us humans). What we decide is to high-tail it back to God and open ourselves for whatever spiritual growth we're ready to receive.
We go for spiritual growth because it does work and 100% of the time (albeit rarely getting us what we think we need). What we are forever learning is that God does not hold grudges ("You should have asked me in the first place." "It's your own fault." "I could have told you so.") What we are learning is that God can and will if sought...anything.
We sit down, get quiet, and practice the art of un-thinking. Drop the problem, and invite God out from within. What works best for me: "Do your thing, God, you got the power."
When will we ever learn? When will we ever learn? Never perfectly...everyday if we're doing it right.
Thank you.
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