DOUBTS AND FEARS ARE GOD'S WILL, GOD'S WAY

The following is from my journal...I believe that I need to realize this as more implicit directions, i.e., God's will, God's way:

From July 10th entry: Quoting Rabbi Dr. Shmuly Yanklowitz: The prophet is neither cool nor popular; the prophet is not the life of the party. The prophet is an anxious personality juggling the demands of God with the needs of humans. Constantly risking alienation or even death, the prophet is isolated and lonely. But we are not allowed to turn away. 

From my entry today, 8/3/25: What if I am the prophet? Ah, blinding flash of the obvious: I am MY prophet...I am neither cool nor popular; I am not the life of the party. I am an anxious personality juggling the demands of God with the needs of humans. Constantly risking alienation or even death, I am isolated and lonely. But I am not allowed to turn away. 

That for sure describes my upside down, inside out feelings since 3:00 AM, April 30th. Still, I move forward...forward with doubts, fears, what-ifs ringing in my head.

I take comfort in a long-ago blinding flash: I cannot know God's will, God's way before it is time for me to know, and my trust must come in living that...ah, with doubts, fears, what-ifs ringing in my head. Apparently.

Thank you.