RAISED CONSCIOUSNESS WITH SKIN ON IT

Overcoming self-determined objectives is a spiritual need, i.e., hard, ain't it hard, Lord, lovin' You.

I have two opportunities today...to stay with self or to move on up. My egoic wants and my spiritual needs are push-pulling me. 

I feel like I am arm-wrestling with God, torn between my ego's want to remain alone, not go out of my hidey-hole home, to only talk to others by phone or text...torn on the other hand by my inner recognition of my higher consciousness need to be with others. 

My want is to stay home alone, hunkered down with my fantasizing thoughts; my need is to go out to dinner and a meeting and mingle...noon, small Step meeting, little required but to show up and chat; or my friend's anniversary meeting...5:30 PM dinner then on to 8:30 speaker's meeting...lots of interaction available...yes but, oh wait, i don't know, i don't wanna, etc. 

I could do noon only. I could do evening only. I could do both.   

I hold my nose and take a leap of faith...God's will, God's way. Trust and ponder no further...I will be contacted.  

Later blinding flash of the obvious: I need to be with my raised consciousness with skin on it...people in the flesh. 

Thank You.