I awoke this morning with an unfamiliar feeling. As I lie there, I let the sense deepen, letting it speak to me rather than me questioning it. It came to me: I knew I was freer...not freed, but freer. That my seven years of initiation, 2017 to 2024, had lifted me to a higher plane not by will but by grace.
Remember, rejoice, repeat. Thank you.
My share yesterday, in which I mentioned the inner discovery of impersonal love and laughter, came to mind. I hardly knew what to say then because I barely realized the gift I'd been given...full realization is for the rest of my life, I'm learning.
All I know for certain is that love and laughter have been my go-to for many years, but this is a higher/deeper knowing...the joy, the rightness of IMpersonal love and laughter.
Remember, rejoice, repeat. Thank you.
Waking with the sense of an upgraded change within me...I had to wonder. What did that mean...to stop and sense impersonal love and laughter?
It brought me a fuller awareness of that impersonal love and laughter...I had no want-to, no "jump-and-shout," no "shout hallelujah." I felt peaced...all over. From my nose to my toes. I wasn't grinning like a Chessy cat, I wasn't even wanting to. I was peaced.
This I know: This, too, shall pass.
This, too, I know...it will only pass to the degree that is necessary for me personally to grow stronger in faith. I dread/welcome growing through another period of necessary suffering; i.e., letting go of egoic fixes (self-determined objectives) and welcoming anew "Oh, No!" (God's perfect objectives).
Remember, rejoice, repeat. Thank you.
Thank you.
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