Blinding flash of the obvious: Ponder nothing, live God Now.
My BFO led me more deeply to the realization that life is not to be figured out, the whys and hows and who's to blame, but to be lived Now...one second at a time wholly conscious that God is in charge, is thinking my next thought, speaking my next word, living my next instant. Then I walk it in gratitude and in doubt.
When I awoke this morning, I was agitated (afraid), and I was considering Caron's "Break Through." I decided nothing but that I needed to do my usual morning readings which I did. My answer was given to me in God Calling: 'Look unto Me and be ye saved all the ends of the earth.' Not for merit was salvation, the promise was to all who looked.
The promise is to all who look. Again, I get confirmation of my BFO.
It seems when, not if, I panic and mentally consider outside...any outside...help, my Me speaks, and I hear. Actually, from my first year in fellowship, when I was scared all the time, I remember asking my mentor (and others) if I should see a shrink. I was told by all to give my first year wholly to the fellowship, and my decision would come.
Indeed, my answer did come...stick with still more spiritual growth...and I have. Admittedly, my seeking has led me to many different ways and means for my spiritual growth; i.e., shrinks, Buddhism, Christianity, Elizabeth Kubler Ross, et al., and I have received something from each. But the Sermon on the Mount was my first solid connection, and it remains so today...I am beyond grateful.
God is so good to me.
Thank you.
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