Monday, May 13, 2024

OUR WORST FEAR IS GOD'S PERFECT GIFT

God creates the very dissatisfaction that only grace and finally divine love can satisfy. -- Fr Richard Rohr, Daily Meditation, May 13, 2024

Thou preparest a place before me in the presence of mine enemies. -- from Psalm 23:5, KJV

The essence of those two sentences is the basis for my changed heart and mind. When a spiritual yearning came to me, 50 some years ago, the only prayer I knew by heart was "Now I Lay Me Down To Sleep." The Lord's Prayer I could repeat a beat or two after the person next to me said the words which was fine by me.

My spiritual yearning came to me back then dressed as Anxiety Attacks. Oh, how I prayed for God to remove them...lift them...free me. 

Here was my first lesson (albeit unknowingly) in the counterintuitive nature of spiritual growth. My anxiety was not lifted, removed or even lessened...no, I used it to help me learn to welcome my anxiety. The peace of resist not evil was born within me.

It took several years, and then only in looking back, for me to recognize the true nature of the happening, i.e., spiritual growth taking me to a deeper level higher. 

This was one of my first experiences of being physically used by my inner knowing, and I am grateful that it took several years to fully grasp it. The wonder of it is that more is being revealed to this day...being physically used by our inner self for our own spiritual growth is the Father and I are one.

Mostly I know that from my toes to my nose but completing the journey?...maybe three days after I'm dead. I can only hope so I'll keep on growing spiritually.

Thank you.

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