Looking back I see change in action in my life. Thoughts float freely of my recent inside changes, and I become aware that none of my changes were self-generated or self-effected.
Blinding flash of the obvious: To be changed is to be healed is to be humbled.
To begin to change, we first must recognize that which needs changing and accept that it is never "out there." This is a long-time process mainly because we stay stuck in our own mind trying to figure out how to fix us.
We start with that which we dodge naming, a defect of character...we call it a "flaw in temperament" or, even prettier, a "personality trait." We learn this: Until we own our defect, our defect owns us.
There is our answer...our defect is invariably our dependence on ourself to make the change when that has never been ours to do. Ours is to surrender...to lose. To lose ourself to God, to lose our self-determined objectives to God's perfect objective...love. That is all. Love.
Love that which is causing our angst. Love will not remove that which is causing the angst, it removes the angst. In exchange for love and laughter.
To freely love and laugh at our own self is to be changed, to be healed, to be humbled.
Thank you.
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