TO KNOW GOD IS TO SEEK GOD

....there’s a place within us where those names have become one, God’s name and our name. That’s the source of the authority out of which we speak. -- Fr Richard Rohr, Daily Meditation, February 16, 2023

I'm not sure whether I took comfort or felt relief upon reading that this morning...in particular the source of the authority out of which we speak. 

I really try to note that my posts are "according to me" rather than (as it may come across) holy writ...or, more to my point, that I think it is holy writ. But, who's kidding whom? It is holy writ to me. I believe it from my toenails up because I have experienced it just as I write it...from that place within. 

In truth, that place within is my holy grail...I know it to be true mainly because I have experienced it, but also because I study the works of great and good spiritually informed folks who have lectured, preached and written about it. 

Yet still, I seek. Probably because I do not feel it...or have the feeling I expect to have. But what is that exactly? How do I expect to feel the place within me where God and I have become one? 

I expect to feel other than I feel. Other...different, elevated, lifted up, Christed...and there's a whole 'nother topic to overanalyze. Face it, to overanalyze is head talking, not experience sharing. Let it be.

Best I got: I know without fear or fight, and that is of God...to want the feeling, too, is ego wanting its piece of the action. 

Do I hear get over yourself whispered in my ear? There's my hug from God.

Thank you.