What a comfort it is to find myself in the spiritual writings of others. Fr Richard's quote above describes me, where I am and have been for some time now. I am happy with less-than, welcoming smaller for my deepening spiritual Way.
I was talking with God this morning before my meditation sit, and I owned up to the guilt I have begun to feel after simply sharing with others...a harsh regret, a painful judgment on me about my words...none of which were of prime importance to begin with.
This is new for me which causes me pause...I asked if it was God's way of getting my attention for his reasons.
To examine it fully, guilt excoriates me, accusing me of storing up the spiritual answers of the Sermon, writing about them, quoting them, but in the privacy (secrecy?) of my own self, I "forget" them to writhe in self-judgment.
Blinding flash of the obvious: I feel guilty with every word because I speak without boundaries...with a freedom of spirit. Which can only be of God.
Oh my. Ego just got its comeuppance!...and that, too, can only be of God.
A spirituality of 'descent' frees us to surrender to God our often-messy lives. -- Ibid, Rohr above.
Thank you.
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