In a blinding flash of the obvious, I realized this morning my deepest fear. It is that my mind, through anxiety, might overpower God.
I was gobsmacked that my fear, as I'd always believed, was not that I might lose my mind, but that it would take the reins and run right over God.
That insight came as I was thinking back on yesterday's borderline anxiety when the feeling was upon me that my mind might be about to do the dirty any minute now.
My personal eye-opener came with my recollections this morning when I felt more meh than Oh No!
Letting that filter through, I sensed my old Velvet Comforter had enwrapped me, and I knew: My inner Self holds me safe and secure no matter what, is not dependent on my mind, sane or not so much.
There's my peace of mind back and shouting Hallelujah! I've not been lying to myself all this time! It is true, God has my back!
All that puts the period on my wonderings of what God's will is for me with regard to my personal mishaps and missteps of the day: Pray thank you, feel it, praise God and move on.
OBTW, we must in truth believe our thank you to move on.
Thank you.
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