BFO: I can trust that I am freed from the bondage of self whenever I need be. It is in the moment of need that "God is on the field."
A glimmering thought: Freedom from the bondage of self is not with us every second of our walking-around life.
That recalls us to the realization that God is not available on demand, that need is the clarion call. Well, now. That being the case, if freedom from self comes as needed, we need (as Rohr puts it) conflicts, relationship difficulties, moral failures, defeats to our grandiosity, even seeming enemies. (It has helped me to name those ego resisters as my emery board for each grinds me down, shapes me in my Father's image.)
We are unselfed by our need coming in the moment of ego resisting the moment...by our taking offense or giving offense. When it comes to our awareness, it is There. Without thought. Involuntarily. Self gives over, whispers thank you, and we know freedom.
Want is from the eyebrows up, need is God, my Soul, on the field. I wonder if wanting freedom from the bondage of self isn't my better self resisting ego but relying on reasoning mind. That's heading in the right direction with X number of detours to go...but how else do we learn?
Learning to welcome the detours is the beginning...in kindergarten going for our PhD.
Thank you.
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