THE COURAGE TO BE RIGHT

To pay attention without self-censoring or editing our thoughts (with an eye toward naming them that which we are wishing for) is a hard haul. Too complicated? Just taking myself too seriously again.

Rohr wrote today about his long-ago experience at Thomas Merton's hermitage: I hadn’t known that two such contrary feelings could coexist. I was truly experiencing the nondual mind of contemplation. 

I  wondered if that is the root of my now experience...I am knowing no regrets today, yet rues, regrets and remorses seem to be flooding my memory. Both at the same time.

Of course I want this to be an indication that I'm on the right road, or at least heading in the right direction, toward the nondual mind of contemplation. It may be, or it may not be. 

There's my pearl...the place to hold the tension that Rohr writes about so often. To hold the tension between right/wrong, black/white, yes/no, knowing/not knowing. To hold the tension in trust, in faith, in peace that the answer is already behind me, the puzzle is already solved.

Breathe it...live it already. 

But how? By using that which we have...the gumption to try, the nerve to be wrong, the courage to be right.

Remember back in the day our mantra was, Perfect peace is having someone to blame. 

That has finally come true...only now we know it as having someone to thank, the God of our own understanding.

Thank you.