GOD IS. TRUST THAT.

Many unexplainable things have been taking place within me these last...I know not how long...weeks? Months? As with most turning points on my journey, I begin by doing it wrong...according to my egoic mind. For which, I castigate me, I pray my thank you, I castigate me, etc., etc., etc.

Recently a new angle to my recalcitrant mind opened, and I see a glimmer of light. I ask for nothing, I just pray my thank you and hold the light. And more unexplainable things open to me.

To be clear, these "unexplainables" are not the pretties one would expect from a loving God. No. They are mostly my own defects of character (which I believe are aptly named...why else would we seek so diligently to get rid of them?). The sublime difference being...I am recognizing them today as a reward for the benefit of others. Long ago I saw my experience with the IRS as essential to my spiritual growth, but today I glimpse how that experience benefited others as much or more than it did me...that faux pas of mine which was the genesis for one or two of my deeper friendships, I now see gifted them with others even more. 

To see the changing of our mind...to observe the exchange of our will taking place effortlessly...requires nothing but trust. Trust even in the feelings of no trust! I have been down this road before...many times. These insights are another sacred U-bie...God turning me upward deeper still, yet, again. 

We are observing our want to believe become a need to believe become our proof of purchase: God is. Trust that.

Thank you.