Everyday is a new beginning. We are seldom aware of it as such, more often than not only when our spiritual equilibrium has been shaken. Which seems to be my path now. Thomas Keating's words bring me comfort bordering on solace...especially the reaffirmation that the route out is not by avoidance but by leaning in.
For no known reason, sometime back I started blessing my thoughts by consciously turning them over to God to do with them and build of them as he willed. Interestingly, they have recently begun coming at warp speed, and they are dark...all thought-memories of me back in the day, my long-ago rues, regrets and remorses now strutting their stuff across my mind.
I am beyond grateful that I have the gift of gratitude, and although I am not swift on the uptake, the lag time is shorter, so when I get to my thank you, I can move on. Sometimes simply relieved, often grateful if only to be moving on, more often with a teeny-tiny glimmer of light leading me forward.
Here are two facts, the truth of which I can and do attest to based on my own personal experience:
It is a spiritual axiom that whenever we are upset, no matter what the cause, there is something wrong with us. Then, my favorite: When our toes get stepped on, seemingly without provocation, invariably we find that we have made a decision based on self that later placed us in a position to be hurt.
The surprising gift in realizing the truth in those facts and Keating's words is they all lead to the same source of our upset...our own self. I am the source of all my woes.
With that inner-knowing, we accept our way now is going to offer up pain...but only if we're doing it right.
Thank you.
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