I am here. Do not need feeling too much. To ask for feeling too much is to ask for a sign....What does it matter what you feel? What matters is what I am, was, and ever shall be to you....The feeling that I am with you may depend upon any passing mood of yours--upon a change of circumstances, upon a mere trifle. -- "God Calling," December 28
I do not doubt that my desire to feel God in my life has been the self-built barrier to my accepting that I never have not had God in my life, thus, already have God right here, right now. Literally, a self-determined objective that cannot be faulted for sounding good, right and righteous...a barrier nonetheless.
Most everyone...I don't doubt that indeed everyone...has experienced coincidences, unexplainable by the reasoning mind, that have opened doors, shined a light on a dark place, been carelessly called "miracle." On experiencing these flashes, some of us have felt humbled, some merely baffled, some relieved and that's it.
Those happenings may or may not be God at work. I choose to believe...because, after all, I'm working with the God of my understanding...that those are God thoughts cleaning the egoic mind's blackboard. We have a phrase, "Is it odd or is it God?" We must decide for ourself the answer that fits us in the here and now.
I have decided to leave the intellectual aside and declare for my own Fr Richard Rohr's statement: "What is true in Jesus is true in us! We never could have claimed this intellectually if we did not sense it intuitively...."
Thank you.
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