BEFORE WE KNOW OUR NEED, IT IS OURS

A Day In The Life...Or A Diary Of Consciousness

1. My 'God Calling' Notes - a) '88 - today I look for $10 million. 

    b) '17 - today I realized I got the $10 million and more by my consciousness of enough...I realized the limitation of $10 million. I particularly noted that it took me 29 years to realize this particular truth.

2. My Experience of Yesterday - Had lunch with Gertrude wherein, for whatever reason, she mocked all things of our Fellowship, from "the sacred coffee pot" to service work,  and I laughed and let her, almost encouraging her...all the while wondering what I "should" do, in effect, turning my thoughts to God.

I came home half regretting my actions, or non-actions, but I was grateful that I'd turned to God as it was happening so I let it all perc. Being freed of regret, the goal I was given several years ago came to mind. The goal is from Deepak Chopra's entirely fictional book, "Jesus," and the short version is that Jesus let Judas walk all over him in their growing up years...the punchline being Judas was the angel that helped Jesus do nonresistance which helped Jesus fully realize and show forth his divinity. I took that as the God instruction I had sought and that I had acted on...which relieved me of the  resentment that was begging to attach itself to Gertrude for she, too, was doing God's work, and I can be grateful for her. Plus, it was neither my ego nor my hypocrisy.

3, Today - I read Fr Richard Rohr's "Daily Meditation" with the Vow of Nonviolence, and I knew   that as, in essence, God's instruction, given to me before I ever heard of the Vow of Nonviolence. 

Vow of Nonviolence: Recognizing the violence in my own heart, yet trusting in the goodness and mercy of God, I vow for one year to practice the nonviolence of Jesus who taught us in the Sermon on the Mount:

Blessed are the peacemakers, for they shall be called the sons and daughters of God. . . . You have learned how it was said, “You must love your neighbor and hate your enemy”; but I say to you, Love your enemies, and pray for those who persecute you. In this way, you will be daughters and sons of your Creator in heaven. (Matthew 5:9, 43-45)

Of secondary importance to me is the fact that I had just noted that it took me 29 years to realize the first gift, and I now recognized the second gift as before it happened. 

Our reasoning mind looks at how long it takes for God's work to be done, but spiritual mind sees it is  already done before we are aware of it. 

The Father does indeed know our needs, takes care of them before they are needed, and gives us freedom to realize that fact as we need it.

Thank you.