Well, I had one sleepless, toss-and-turn, night...all because I realized a very obvious fact in my life that I had never before seen...and I refuse to commit in black and white just how teeny-tiny itsy-bitsy that fact is. Just know...it'll take less than three hours, four at most, to fix it. Yes, it is an outside something, but it ties directly back to my innermost fear.
About 3:00 AM I realized that I was experiencing a consciousness raising...and it does hurt. It actually did feel like my skin was being stripped off my bones, and I did say right out loud, "I feel like I'm being 'torn asunder.'"
Now for the good...I'm talking FANTASTIC...news. I journaled about it this morning, and I saw that this consciousness raising began awhile back...several actions I took that were fairly small but were new to me, therefore risky. The very first one was not small; I did my serious thank you prayer (more than once), held my nose and took a leap of faith. It turned out well, and I expect that was the "Gates ajar" that led to the following little biggies culminating in my last night's awakening.
God loves me, God loves me, God loves me. You, too!
Thank you.
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