[The following is a reworked reprint of my blog of February 13, 2012.]
All my adult life the one thing I knew that I wanted was peace of mind. I wonder why it is so hard to accept that I have, have always had, peace of mind. It is right there within me with two paths to it: 1) quit resisting…anything; 2) quit wanting…anything.
Simple as that...and why does simple so seldom equate to easy?
It is humbling to me to realize that from my eyebrows up I know the secret of life itself…for that matter, so does anybody who chooses to see it. It’s when I catch myself choosing not to use that which I know that is the humbler.
I can still get blinded by my own perceptions of what I need, what I believe to be best for me…even when I’m honestly thinking of how to be of service to another. The fact is my ego dictates its wants whenever it chooses...my freedom is in remembering that God has my back and turning from my ego's wants.
All this is about my seeing just this morning that I took a risk for the benefit of another, put myself out there (for which I am grateful). My problem is that my ego-victory mind has been toying with the result I want from having put myself out there.
All my adult life the one thing I knew that I wanted was peace of mind. I wonder why it is so hard to accept that I have, have always had, peace of mind. It is right there within me with two paths to it: 1) quit resisting…anything; 2) quit wanting…anything.
Simple as that...and why does simple so seldom equate to easy?
It is humbling to me to realize that from my eyebrows up I know the secret of life itself…for that matter, so does anybody who chooses to see it. It’s when I catch myself choosing not to use that which I know that is the humbler.
I can still get blinded by my own perceptions of what I need, what I believe to be best for me…even when I’m honestly thinking of how to be of service to another. The fact is my ego dictates its wants whenever it chooses...my freedom is in remembering that God has my back and turning from my ego's wants.
All this is about my seeing just this morning that I took a risk for the benefit of another, put myself out there (for which I am grateful). My problem is that my ego-victory mind has been toying with the result I want from having put myself out there.
My ah-ha moment: I have already received God's result…and it is nada to my reasoning mind. That is what I get to be grateful for, that is where true gratitude lies.
Thank you.
Thank you.
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