Back picture: I behaved less than wonderfully yesterday afternoon, did not even realize it until I was feeding Ruckus some five hours later, and I saw it...me showing my butt just as if others wanted to see it. I was mortified. I was so mortified that I immediately went into ego-victory fantasies of "John" taunting me about it with me shooting out a gazillion different nastier-than-his responses.
And a gentle reminder floated through my mind...just a wispy, "This, too, is God."
My mindset was immediately changed, and I began to picture me agreeing completely with John. Agreeing with him by laughing because what I was resisting him saying was, in fact, true...I did not show well, and it was noticeable at the time by everyone but me, and whatcha gonna do but laugh?
Now, this all took place in my own head, mind you. But isn't that where all change starts? By simply changing our mind. Looking a tish deeper, the change starts with God, of course. That's why we spend so much time in prayer and meditation...to keep our God channel open and clear of self-clutter so we can hear when we're spoken to.
If we aren't God-centered, we will stay in our own reasoning mind...stuck in ego-victory fights, building resentments against people who actually need utter not a word.
If not for God, I'd already have a resentment against poor John who may not have noticed me at all yesterday.
Thank you.
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