I am the good I seek. In order to benefit from that fact, my focus must be inside, within me, inner directed. It is not enough to know (because I read it somewhere and it rang true and I get it) that I am the good I seek. That’s just knowing from my eyebrows up…which is essential as a first step.
It is after I get it, then begins the work…and the work is to not work. It’s all about sitting in the silence, relaxing into Myself, not striving to attain…anything. Detach, detach, detach.
It is the unseen, the unformable that is the gold I seek. I already know that I contain within myself all the patience that I will ever need, all the love, all the happy, all the forgiveness, all the unseens as it were. For if it is not within me, where do I go to get it? Knowing that, however, serves me no good if, for instance, the clerk at the store takes his own sweet time and holds me up from my ego-driven things to do, places to go, people to see, and I shoot him a nasty (not even a nasty word, but a nasty thought!)…then, the cosmic rule “what goes around comes around” goes into full force and effect. And I will rue my thought-response.
It is in letting go of those ego-driven thoughts and words that brings the change within me/without me. No matter how egregious the action I perceive, to react in kind is more egregious to my inner being…and thus to my outer.
Imagine my joy when I realized that of myself, I am utterly incapable of making any ego change. That is precisely why I must go into the silence, relax and thank God Almighty that He’s got my back, that I have no pony in this race, no dog in this fight…it is my life, and God lives it through me.
Thank you.
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