I awoke this morning torn between spiritual knowledge and reasoning mind emotions.
Spiritually, I know it is God's grace that my beloved Si has passed from sight...that now he is free in the consciousness of the Lord, One with All.
Emotionally, I cannot remember ever feeling such gut-burning rage. I know anger is said to be one of the stages of grief, and I say BULL! This ain't no stage, and I will not be pacified by platitudes. I refuse to release my memories of his laughter, his droll manner in speaking his truth...how he brought lightness into our rooms.
My heart is broken.
And still I filter through...whispering words of peace and joy. From the bottom of my grateful heart, comes a song of praise and thanks that Si was physically present in my life for any time at all and now present in consciousness forever.
We can rest with that joy singing in our Soul...joy that he is with us even now, his very essence flowing through our world.
It is our beloved Si himself who brings us peace.
Thank you.
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