I was talking to myself this morning, rattling on about the fine line between my spiritual world and my ego-victory world, and it occurred to me that there is no fine line. There is a moment in time…that moment when I make my decision to throw in with God or to hold to my reasoning mind for my security. (That moment of time comes more than once, thank God.)
It’s akin to living at the Grand Canyon, living fully and happily on this earth, but seeking more. So I keep enough distance from the rim of the Canyon to be able to see it, risking nothing, but occasionally edging closer…then darting back, then venturing closer…and still closer. And there I am at the rim, looking down, stomach feeling like it has already jumped…and I know, if I am ever going to fully realize the God I seek, I’m going to have to take that leap of faith…trusting that I will be caught, held close, secure.
Then my reasoning mind, bolstered by fear, kicks in with all of its questions…how do I just DO it? What if my leap of faith is just another self-determined objective? What if God’s true way is something entirely different, and here’s me, hanging out there without a net?
Good news: there is no “without a net” when I’m seeking still more spiritual growth. Better news: God does not care how I come to him…just seek, keep seeking, seek some more. Best news: God already is…within me, without me.
Now to live that, trusting.
Thank you.
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