I've been mentally arm-wrestling with God this morning, about a condition that my ego is invested in. I remembered that quote of Goldsmith's, so I brought the condition into my mind's eye and pondered it...seeing it as neither good nor bad. Nothing necessarily happened, or I didn't know it if it did, but less than an hour later, I had a blinding flash of the obvious: I want to leave my current nemesis with love and laughter as his memory of me.
That requires me to change my attitude, change my own interpretation of events...change my mind, in short. I can see the event as it transpired, with her saying and doing exactly as she did and said, and myself the same...only now see us both laughing as it all transpired for there were no ugly words, only a less-than wonderful attitude on both parts.
God has given me my goal, to leave my friend with love and laughter as his memory of me...a perfect idea where we both come out the winner. I cannot of myself do that but I can make myself available to let God's grace flow. Plan not, plot not, and stay open to the sense of loving kindness going forth.
The key is remembering that I cannot all by myself make the necessary changes but only I can head my thinking in a higher direction in order for grace to do the dirty. I just get to love, laugh, and pray with praise.
Thank you.
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