MY CHOICE FOR GOD TO USE

Fail not in your function

of loving in a loveless place

made out of darkness and deceit,

for thus are darkness and deceit undone.

from "A Gift of Peace" at p. 95

I've read "A Gift of Peace," reread and reread and reread, since 1986. That is one of my favorite passages, and it was another epiphany when I realized that "darkness and deceit" are everything in my world that is not peace, not of God, thus are of the reasoning mind. 

My mind had always interpreted darkness and deceit as only relative to friends, foes, countries...people, just people. No. Darkness and deceit are the flip side of God consciousness...they exist only in our ego's reality (which, we must remember, does not exist).

I awoke this morning with my diagnosis of macular degeneration on my mind. I turned my thoughts to my original incurable, progressive disease which I had prayed so hard to not have. God knew better, I now have it and, gratefully, I have named it "Blessed."  

So here's my choice today...I get to think of my diagnosis of macular degeneration as the worst thing that could happen to me and not fair into the bargain: I live alone, I'm getting (got!) old...how can I deal with certain blindness, and all the uglies inherent to that? (This is a.k.a., poor, pitiful, put-upon me thinking.) 

OR, I can make a conscious decision to love my eyes just as they are right this very minute, give them to God to tend to, and remind myself, as needed, that macular degeneration may be the necessary tool that I chose for God to use in bringing me higher in consciousness with Him. 

That works for me. I say "thank you" and get back to happy.

Thank you.