A couple of quick thoughts that I read this morning really caught
my attention. The first was just four words: “fascinated by our sins” and the
other, “the attainment of a merciful heart.”
Each of these was personal to me…”fascinated by our sins”
spoke of my, back in the day, getting bogged down in my rues, regrets and
remorses. I would never have put that label on it because “fascinated” has such
a glitzy sound to me…like, something good I’m seeing or experiencing. I am
reminded of the snake…is it the cobra?…that the story says holds one in thrall
in order to strike…and kill. Which pretty much describes getting bogged down in
regrets. Caught up in a fascination of my sins leads to a deadening…a deadening
of spirit, mind, want to…want to do anything but mull those regrets.
The other, “the attainment of a merciful heart,” spoke to my
today’s focus…finding understanding within me for Rush [Limbaugh] and Franklin
[Graham]. The quote is attributed to Isaac of Syria who said, in part,
that the attainment of a merciful heart comes from constantly offering prayers
with tears for the enemies of truth.
I felt both comforted and electrified by the words “with
tears.” I doubt Isaac meant that the way I’m experiencing it, but for today
I've got to believe that the tears are for my inability to move off of my
resistance to those two. I still just have a strong desire to smack them.
Bless them, change me…sigh.
Thank you.
Thank you.
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