GOD CANNOT NOT SHOWER LOVE ON ALL

I never understood the Biblical admonition that lust committed in your thoughts is lust committed. I’m beginning to get the reasoning behind that.

I had a run-in with an acquaintance, and I was able to not respond in kind to her real reaming me out. And I remained silent without effort…I knew in my mind and in my heart that this was not personal to me.

My hard lesson learning now is to continue in my thinking to let it stay “not personal to me.”

I awoke this morning with an unquiet mind. Once I took the time to sort my thoughts, I realized I was starting to chew her a new one, pay her back, shame her…all my favorite self-poisoning thoughts.

I quick turned my thoughts to things of God, i.e., a bed of lilies of the valley, Ruckus, my young friend James.

Once my thoughts got settled, I could see that I was feeling pride over remaining silent, not responding in kind, etc. And it was not mine to feel pride about. I know full well I am incapable of remaining calm in the midst of a storm not even aimed at me. What I had was the opportunity to praise my acquaintance for being the instrument through which God worked to show me that is a possibility…and He did it through me, for me. 

Then the BFO: If she doesn't benefit, too…if she doesn't come out a winner, too…then neither of us wins. As long as my thoughts are that God did for me, through me, and not for us, through us, I am still in the place where resentments get born. They just spring out full grown one fine morning…like this morning when I awoke with an unquiet mind. That was a resentment looking to form.

Which takes me back to lust committed in your thoughts is lust committed. As long as I am saying naught to anybody about it just silently obsessing over my righteous behavior, I am still judging her.

My need is to detach from my own thoughts about it. When the thought arises, and it will, I get to simply turn to God with the desire that both my friend and I realize God’s love in this situation, however that manifests.

God cannot shower love on only one side. Since God is love, all sides get to come out the winner. [Personal, and slightly sanctimonious, note to all warmongers.]

Thank You.