I sat down to journal this morning and wrote, "Jesus, help me be more like you" and had a real jolt...what if I already am like Jesus? As he was when he was aborning...when he was becoming the Jesus we praise today? What if he, too, had to go through all this petty crap in getting there?
Likely, that's exactly how he learned the Sermon is the only way...the shortest way, actually, to get free of self.
I realized, yet again, that each piece of petty crap is the personal tool that I chose for my use. It is all the petty crap that I choose to put in front of me to overcome that can and will get me there..."there" being free of me, which is simply ego reduction in depth.
Finding ways to win, to shut these personal pets down or shut them up only grows them stronger. Then later, when they have grown stronger through that very resistance, I will have to surrender, give up and give in if I ever want to be free.
They cannot be ignored or resisted away. I need to walk through them, and there find the best news...God has already turned them into my gold.
Thank You.
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