The claim of the mystic is, at last, that you don’t need anything to bring you to God....I can ascend my own altar stairs wherever I am, under any circumstances, and the key to the understanding of the experience, and to the experience itself, is never in the hands of any other human being.-- Mystic theologian Howard Thurman
My hard lesson to learn is I am the source of all of my good, of all of my less-than-good, of all of my life's breath.
My harder lesson to live is I in the I am is me, is you, is her, is him, is they and them...is the God of our own understanding.
My hardest lesson to walk is acceptance...accepting I am the fear I fear, the source of all my fears, I am the failures I curse, I am the source of all the unfulfilled dreams of my yesterdays...and tomorrows.
Comes now Truth to knock out ego: There is the proof...we are blessed beyond imagining.
I know and I know I know that Jesus, Mary and Joseph along with all my angels led me to this long-ago blinding flash of the obvious: Nothing turns me to God faster than fear.
Reasoning mind, earning its keep, welcome fear to walk free.
Thank you.
Just for the record and my memory's sake, I need to note my journal entry this morning: The sense came upon me, 'Finally, the deal is done.' And I realized that this is It....that which I have sought for so long, from now on I will hold in trust knowing this is the assurance that God's promise fulfills me now...each moment from now on...It is no longer 'God can and will if sought'...it is 'thank You, Father, that I Am...whatever is before me.' [I need not get all mental about walking through fire or snake pits...being kind, being accepting to someone my ego resists, is a hard enough starter.] For sure, I will stumble, I will fall, and God has already loved and laughed, showing me how it's done. Thank You.
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