My God Calling is my treasure chest. Looking back on the notes I wrote at the time and seeing where I am today...where I have been led to get to me Now...is priceless to my Soul.
On this day in 1990, I wrote about finally standing up to my boss, the retired Colonel who loved to make mock...out loud and on purpose...of my incurable, progressive disease. This was during a time when pushing back could be to risk losing my job. Until the dark night of my Soul when I arm-wrestled with God...and God won.
I called into work the next day, spelled out my conditions for returning to work...and, in short, the Colonel folded. Today I recognize in that dark night my trust in the God of my understanding grew taller.
Today, as I was jotting down my most recent experience which in a thumbnail is about me showing my bum in public, unknowingly and inadvertently to a gathering of Uptown and Polished People...and whose reasoning mind would invite that? But I did, and, after swallowing hard, I got the giggles out of it. Today I recognize that I grew smaller as my trust in my Father grew taller.
The great and glorious change is that today I realize that little, small and smaller still is our spiritual gift. My mentor taught that showing our bum in public is also spiritual...I've said that many times. Ah, but when the proverbial rubber meets the road...actually doing it, unknowingly and inadvertently...is the Tell.
The Tell to the reasoning mind is to be avoided at all costs; to the spiritual mind, it is God's gift... another of-God paradox.
In general, unknowingly and inadvertently are two words we avoid bringing into our life...and rightly so in the dailies of life. The hard lesson in learning is those two words are our invitation to God to do His thing. They are the rough and rocky (but golden!) road to still more spiritual growth.
Thank you.
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