SELF MADE SELFLESS...BY GOD AND BY GRACE

I have said often that when I turned 80 it was as if a switch had flipped within me, and I became...or am becoming...a different person.

I journaled just this morning about the changes that are taking place within me, the results of actions I have taken sans any thought or decision made. A for instance: yesterday was to be "wash day," meaning immediately after my quiet time and my breakfast, I'd get my wash done. 

Without thinking about it, I did less than nothing until around 3:00 or 3:30 PM, when, again without thought, I got the basket of dirty clothes, tossed the first load in the washer, after which, the second load, and finished shortly before 7:00 PM. 

My forever code has been, If it doesn't get done in the morning, it doesn't get done. Clearly, this is a major change to a minor way of life. It probably feels major because I had no part in the decision, but I look like a puppet in my mind's eye. 

This is the most I've thought about it, mayhap because of my note in my God Calling. Exactly one year ago today, I wrote, I am in deep initiation work now...on the razor's edge of self and selfless. This reminds me of my recent realization that my self-confidence is being transmuted into God-assurance...self into selfless. 

I have to believe these "little" changes are the ribbon running through...raising my consciousness by God and by grace...more proof that my life is not mine to fix, it is God's to do with me, to build of me, God's will, God's way. 

This I know...from experience...never dismiss ego. It will be with me until three days after I am dead, and any self-directed divergence from Me First, "i" in charge, is ego...Edging God Out. I can love that, too...actually, I can love knowing that. There...assurance God is doing my thinking for me. 

Thank you.