Being open...nonresistant...to God and grace, to legimate suffering, growth, is the essence of ego reduction in depth.
To me, that sounds so inviting...the idea is so rich...ah, but the living of it? A whole 'nother story.
I'm beginning to understand that we must needs get there before we can become entirely willing to go there. Which is to say, we seldom see a reduced ego until we get to the looking-back stage...to gratitude in a word.
When I am laying-down-the-Word to myself or to others, I know and I know I know: ego reduction in depth is God's will, so, resist not, quit'cher bitchin', and get cracking. Or, so saith the self-determined ego, rigid, righteous and right as usual.
The slowly awakening truth within us is that we are becoming spiritual beings...which, unbeknownst to us is ego reduction in depth. To our reasoning mind's experience, it is painful, lengthy...uh-oh, neverending?
The reasoning mind hook is not realizing that our very trying to be a good and decent person...kind, generous, giving...is a self-determined objective. Which is better than living the opposite of good and decent, but we stall there...there is no spiritual growth in trying only. We decide to be satisfied with being unsatisfied because our objective is so pure that reason knows it is God's objective. Ah, but have we ever asked God if this be his will? No. Because we know, and we know we know.
Being open...nonresistant...to ego deflation in toto is literally living in the Now...not even loving kindness in our thoughts...unfocused...Present here, now...not even our idea of God floating free. The gotcha, of course, is if that be a goal, we are still living with a self-determined objective.
"Just do it" is not only a great sales motto, it means, Just. Do. It.
We make a decision to turn our will and our life over to the care of God...meaning we're going to try and fail or succeed, makes no nevermind...until we realize that already we are blessed by God, right and wrong, good and not good...all blessed by God.
There it is...peace of mind: Resist not, neither screw-ups nor successes. Do what we do, love and laugh at our efforts, and pray thank you.
The Father knows our needs...fulfilled them before we knew them. Pray thank you and, as the Spirit moves you, pass it on.
Thank you.
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